welcome :)
One of my biggest fears with this project is coming true.
I thought it would be fun to document what I do every day and share fun lessons or thoughts, but there’s an issue.
I genuinely do nothing except work and think about work.
I wake up sometime between 3:30 am and 5:30 am, work until 3-5pm, walk my dog, spend the night stressing about what I need to do tomorrow or finishing from earlier in the day, then go to bed.
It’s “great” for my career, yet awful for my personal fulfillment. As much as I love work and creating, it feels like there’s a lot missing. I’m not sure what to do about it or how to break the cycle. It feels like so few things bring fulfillment anymore that in my mind, I might as well spend all of my time on something that might add value to someone else and keeps me occupied.
I don’t know.
My mind feels trapped and locked into work and it never stops. And that might be the biggest downside of independent work - you physically have to give yourself permission to take a break and turn off, or you probably won’t.
Although, travel is a huge help for me. I visited New York for the first time last October and it was one of those life events where you can feel a shift, like something you can’t “unsee”. The speed of the city, the diversity, the carefree nature - it felt like it was where I belonged 🏙
At the time, I was a little over a year into my entrepreneurial journey and hadn’t traveled anywhere in about 3 years. When I got home, my creative juices were at all-time highs.
I booked another trip in March of this year as I was feeling burnt out and depressed and it didn’t have the same impact as the first trip, it helped me get back on track.
I think there’s power in giving yourself something to look forward to.
But this “newsletter” is partially a public reflection & source of accountability for me because if I don’t share, I don’t know if I’ll ever take the necessary steps to fix myself (whatever they may be).
With today’s issue, I’m realizing that I have no life, so I’ll be working on making it more noteworthy - not just for the sake of having something to write about, but because I’ve struggled with anxiety & depression for a while and part of the reason is that I know I’ve ‘wasted’ so much of my young life on things I’ll never remember or care about.
Maybe you’re struggling with some of the same things and you feel comfortable enough sharing your experience or struggles. Leave a comment or send me an email.
I’d love to talk about it and see if we can make progress together.
🗓 this past week - September 12th
A quick breakdown of my creative businesses:
This week, I got started on the two websites that I’ve signed this month and so far in September, I’ve finished one website and had $4,300 worth of invoices paid.
It was a relatively uneventful week at BreadHQ. I got this week’s edition of The Loaf written, published a new Breadheads* sketch, and that’s it.
However, I do have A LOT of exciting things coming soon, stay tuned :)
Our new client-only merch came in and got shipped out this week 🔥
thank you for reading and for being here. i appreciate you 🖤
treyton