welcome :)
unfortunately, I don’t have much this week. i’m not going to link to this post within The Loaf - it’s not worth it.
for some reason, nothing I do feels relevant enough to share - even though the point of this whole blog is to share what I’m working on.
the feeling i have right now, knowing that i was excited about this new project last week, is exactly why I don’t post about things I’m working on or want to do. I should’ve just kept it private, kept writing to no one, and not posted about it.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I also don’t know why I struggle to take action when there’s no real purpose or deadline behind something. I could sit here and write for 30 minutes a day about what I was working on that day and have a complete edition of Live Different by the end of the week, but i don’t.
I’m writing this at 4:55am on Saturday morning like I do with every newsletter because my brain won’t let me get ahead. I push off any and all work until the absolute the last second and it’s getting tiring. I’m tired.
I’m tired of feeling trapped inside of myself. It makes me really sad, a lot of the time.
I want to accomplish great things, and I will, I just have to get out of my own way and figure out why I can’t do things without real deadlines. If you give me a set deadline and an expectation from someone on the other end, it’s guaranteed to be done and on time. That trait helps a lot with freelancing, but not much elsewhere.
One day I’ll figure things out but until I do, guess you’ll see more ramblings and early morning frustrations from me.
📸 plant
if you’re reading this, i appreciate you. sorry for the lack of substance. I’ll get better.
-Treyton
post-publish update - i remembered that i applied for an EIN and recorded the process. that may be helpful to someone: